Charles Spurgeon - Dreary Realms of Unbelief

"There was once an evil hour when once I shipped the anchor of my faith; I cut the cable of my belief; I no longer moored myself hard by the coasts of Revelation; I allowed my vessel to drift before the wind; I said to reason, "Be thou my captain;" I said to my own brain, "By thou my rudder," and I started on my mad voyage. Thank God it's all over now. But I will tell you it's brief history. I was one hurried sailing over the tempestuous ocean of free thought. I went on, and as I went, the skies began to darken...As I hurried forward, with an awful speed, I began to doubt my very existence; I doubted if there were a world, I doubted if there was such a thing as myself. I went to the very verge of the dreary realms of unbelief. I went to the very bottom of the seas of Infidelity. I doubted everything. But here the devil foiled himself: for the very extravagance of the doubt, proved its absurdity. Just when I saw the bottom of that sea, there came a voice which said, "And can this doubt be true?" At this very thought I awoke. I started from that death-dream, which, God knows may have dammed my soul, and ruined this, my body, if I had not awoke. When I arose, faith took the helm; from that moment I doubted not. Faith steered me back; faith cried, "Away, away!" I cast my anchor on Calvary; I lifted my eye to God; and here I am, "alive and out of hell." Therefore I speak what I do know. I have sailed that perilous voyage; I have come to safe land. Ask me again to be an infidel! No; I have tried it; it was sweet at first, but bitterness afterwards. Now, lashed to God's gospel more firmly than ever, standing on the a rock of adamant, I defy the arguments of hell to move me, for "I know in whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him."